Dreams

Hello! I’m back again to blog after being vacuum for some moment.

This is June, almost July, and at most of college we’re on holiday time now.

I have much longer time to be spent writing. Moreover, I miss posting my feeling into words.

I’m very happy that I get good scores again this term. My GPA is raising and it makes my parents proud of me. I was afraid at once because GPA is one of my promises to them, but thanks to God that I can accomplish it. Right after that happy moment I took time watching my idol’s live performance video, Beyonce. I always excited whenever I watch it. It feels like it’s giving me such new spirit, passion, willing, dream, etc. I love it when she dance, sing, scream, and tell some powerful words to share joy to the audience. I look at the crowded and think:

“How come someone performs in front of that huge number of people? She must have suffered so long to make it happened! She must’ve done her very best and never complaining. She must’ve cost her time, money, and happiness at first to gain this victory. I want it to! I will try my best, I will cost my time, my money, my playtime, etc. She must’ve strived. She must’ve  I wanna be a fabulous dancing singer. I want to have an outstanding body and gold voice like she has.”

But, I stop and think, I have so many idols.....

And what's more confusing is, all of them are mostly different. Let me mention! I love Beyonce, Agnes Monica, Jessica Alba, Farah Quinn, and Olla Ramlan. Singer, dancer, actress, chef, presenter, what a various figures! Still, I got one similarity: THEY ARE SEXY. So? I love them sexy girls, haha!

 I wanna be a gorgeous smart famous sexy girl with lots of achievements.  Both academic and non academic achievements! Look at the audience whenever those girls I mentioned first above are on stage. People scream aloud as if each of them were Goddess fall from heaven. I want it too!

I used to be a dancer, singer, and presenter. I am still, but I vacuum for two terms focusing on my position as Head of Public Relation Department in my Faculty’s Student Executive Board. That’s why I miss the stage, I miss the crowd audience, I miss the beating heart, I miss the pumped adrenaline, I miss owning the claps, I miss the yells and screams, I miss being the center of attention. I don't regret my decision, but I MISS THOSE THINGS A LOT!

Those 5 girls aren’t enough. I have other idol still. But it’s a figure, not person. I’m dreaming to be a great businessman. I want to have a big corporation. I want to feed people indirectly. I want to be a blessing to people. I want to be able to donate to anyone who needs fund. 

More importantly, I want to die famous. I want to die memorized. I want to die thanked. I want people know me and remember me as impressive and useful one so I can die raising my Father, my Lord’s name.

As a result, I understand that I have so many dreams until sometimes I get confused. But wise people say that we have to dream as high as we can. I believe I can get my dreams come true. All I need is only to prepare every single detail and aspect needed. Time management, priority management, anger management, and etc are things I need to expertise.

If you read this and you have so many dreams like I do, don’t worry! We’ll make it happen! Hold one to your faith, strengthen your willingness and fasten your seatbelt! Plan your path and do what you knew you gotta do even if it is hard!