Hello! I’m
back again to blog after being vacuum for some moment.
This is
June, almost July, and at most of college we’re on holiday time now.
I have much
longer time to be spent writing. Moreover, I miss posting my feeling into
words.
I’m very
happy that I get good scores again this term. My GPA is raising and it makes my
parents proud of me. I was afraid at once because GPA is one of my promises to
them, but thanks to God that I can accomplish it. Right after that happy moment
I took time watching my idol’s live performance video, Beyonce. I always
excited whenever I watch it. It feels like it’s giving me such new spirit,
passion, willing, dream, etc. I love it when she dance, sing, scream, and tell
some powerful words to share joy to the audience. I look at the crowded and
think:
“How come someone performs in front of that
huge number of people? She must have suffered so long to make it happened! She
must’ve done her very best and never complaining. She must’ve cost her time,
money, and happiness at first to gain this victory. I want it to! I will try my
best, I will cost my time, my money, my playtime, etc. She must’ve strived. She
must’ve I wanna be a fabulous dancing
singer. I want to have an outstanding body and gold voice like she has.”
But, I stop
and think, I have so many idols.....
And what's more confusing is, all of them
are mostly different. Let me mention! I love Beyonce, Agnes Monica, Jessica
Alba, Farah Quinn, and Olla Ramlan. Singer, dancer, actress, chef, presenter,
what a various figures! Still, I got one similarity: THEY ARE SEXY. So? I love
them sexy girls, haha!
I wanna be a gorgeous smart famous sexy girl with lots of
achievements. Both academic and non
academic achievements! Look at the
audience whenever those girls I mentioned first above are on stage. People scream aloud
as if each of them were Goddess fall from heaven. I want it too!
I used to be a
dancer, singer, and presenter. I am still, but I vacuum for two terms focusing
on my position as Head of Public Relation Department in my Faculty’s Student
Executive Board. That’s why I miss the stage, I miss the crowd audience, I miss
the beating heart, I miss the pumped adrenaline, I miss owning the claps, I
miss the yells and screams, I miss being the center of attention. I don't regret my decision, but I MISS THOSE THINGS
A LOT!
Those 5
girls aren’t enough. I have other idol still. But it’s a figure, not
person. I’m dreaming to be a great businessman. I want to have a big
corporation. I want to feed people indirectly. I want to be a blessing to
people. I want to be able to donate to anyone who needs fund.
More
importantly, I want to die famous. I want to die memorized. I want to die
thanked. I want people know me and remember me as impressive and useful one so
I can die raising my Father, my Lord’s name.
As a result,
I understand that I have so many dreams until sometimes I get confused. But
wise people say that we have to dream as high as we can. I believe I can get my
dreams come true. All I need is only to prepare every single detail and aspect
needed. Time management, priority management, anger management, and etc are
things I need to expertise.
If you read
this and you have so many dreams like I do, don’t worry! We’ll make it happen!
Hold one to your faith, strengthen your willingness and fasten your seatbelt!
Plan your path and do what you knew you gotta do even if it is hard!
